Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Day 366--A Most Righteous Anniversary Post--I Want to Tell You About Me

Once, a long time ago, there was a little girl. She lived and laughed and played. She was slender and blond, loved to read and play the piano, and was picky about what she ate. Very picky. And then when she was 14 years old, her body started changing. Her hips and thighs became curvier. She found, to her horror, that there was a name for her new legs: thunder thighs. She weighed 120 pounds.
Exercising and dieting were just starting to be popular in the 70s, but she never thought seriously about doing stuff like that. Everything could be concealed quite nicely. As she grew older, she helplessly watched as she got fatter and fatter and fatter. A few times, some weight was lost, giving her a semblance of control. But discouragement always brought all the weight back. Plus some.
When she got married, she weighed 140 pounds and her husband thought she was fat.
After her first baby, she weighed 150 pounds.
She hit 200 with her third baby and never looked back.
By the time she had her 8th (and final) baby, she weighed 300 pounds.
As the years went by, discouragement and despair settled in and became old friends.
She would never be able to lose all that weight, it was too much, would take too much time, was impossible! She hated most vegetables and fruits, and all the other 'good for you' foods that nutritionists declared must be eaten for weight loss to occur.
Always on the look out for the magic 'secret' that people had.
Hoping that scientists would finally come out with that magic pill that would change her life.
She weighed 356 pounds.
She finally accepted that she would never lose weight. She was doomed to being fat for her whole life. She would get bigger and bigger as time went on, and there was absolutely nothing she could do about it. Did they even make a casket her size? The biggest size clothes at WalMart didn't fit her anymore. All of her clothes were stretched and stained. She was tired and depressed. She hated everybody and everything.
She prayed daily that God would change her, help her lose weight.
She hated the movie Gilbert Grape with all her heart.
And then the most wonderful thing in the entire world happened.
She decided she would do it. She would lose weight. She didn't know how, but she knew she would. She began walking that very day. She learned to count her calories and measure her food.
But the best part of all, was she found she could eat what she already was eating!
No pills!
No surgery!
No weirdo diet!
No extremely painful exercise that would hurt her knees and make her breasts jounce dangerously up and down and pert near rip off!
And thus began her journey, exactly one year ago today.
My name is Laura Ward, and this is my story.




This is a difference of two years here.






~*'Where I'm Going From Here'*~

I have 110 pounds to lose to hit my goal of 150 pounds. I plan on increasing my physical activity, hopefully running in a marathon as every good little weight loss person does. I am definitely going to an amusement park in June with my family. The date is already set! The public pool will be visited frequently by me and my children this summer. And I will be wearing a bathing suit and swimming and having a blast! I will keep riding my beautiful bike (thanks Jack). I will sit where I want, play frisbee and volleyball, and run through groves of pine trees. I will eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm not. I am also toying with going to college in the fall.

****My Mentor***

If you've read this blog very much at all, you will see that I refer to one specific person more than anyone else. Yes, my friend Sean. I consider him my mentor. I found his blog on Day 10 of my journey and found out what a delight losing weight can be! It's not hard, or painful, or frustrating. And I feel this way because Sean was living the right and best way to lose weight. Thank you, Sean, from the bottom of my heart, for all your encouraging words to me.
This is for you:
Yes, Sean is the recipient of the soon to be coveted award that I will be giving out. I am quite new at making things like that and if it shrinks anymore you won't be able to see my blog address!

*~*~*My Appreciation for Authors Who Don't Even Know I Read Their Book*~*~*
Much love and gratitude to the following:
The Amazing Adventures of Dietgirl
The Big Skinny
These books helped shape my attitude toward food, weight loss, and life in general.

I had toyed with doing this HUGE post showing the differences between my life before and after but I realized something. I am tired of remembering how horrid my life was. I have everything recorded in my blog so if you really want to know about it, just read it. All my little firsts have come and gone and now I'm living my dream. My marriage has completely changed for the better and I am so happy. I feel vibrant, and filled with joy. I look forward to each day, with no fear, embracing all that comes my way. For this is living, my friends. I am not a slave to food. I am not a slave to my body.
And how much fun it is to be thinner! How wonderful to actually have men talk to me in the checkout line! I am excited to look at clothes and try them on and then buy them and take them home! And I look great! I love shoes and can wear high heels again! And the sex is so different than when I was so huge! I can say that because I'm married so hush.

So now I'm off to celebrate this anniversary with my husband. Yes we're going out to eat and I'm thrilled that it's just not a big deal to reward myself in this way. I always have to cook and don't go out ever.

I'm done with this post. I'm off to live my life now. And I will try really hard to post more frequently!
Much love and hugs to you all and remember----

NEVER GIVE UP, NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!

20 comments:

  1. Zaa (ahem, I mean, Laura - which do you prefer?) -

    What a GREAT post! I love that you can say the sex is better because you're married. And I LOVE that you kept it short and celebrated by living your life today.

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!

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  2. You are incredible my friend! Thank you for the very kind words. It's been a wonderful thing to witness your journey in these writings. You have a wonderful way of conveying the feelings of this amazing transformation. I'm honored that you would refer to me as your mentor. I'm positive that many look at you the same way. You're an inspiration my friend. You so "get this" in every way, shape, and form.

    Enjoy your night out!! You so deserve it Laura!!

    I can finally call you Laura!!! That's cool!

    My best always
    Sean

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  3. Have an absolutely wonderful anniversary dinner with your husband! You are living proof that losing weight does not have to be torture or hard and that anyone can do it. Nice to meet you Laura :)

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  4. Hello laura,
    Good to know your name.
    congratulations on living.
    Have fun.

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  5. congrats on your success, you look wonderful!

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  6. Happy Anniversary, Laura!!! Congratulations on such a successful first year - I wish you many more to come!

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  7. Happy Anniversary Laura, a very pretty name for a beautiful woman.

    You are insprational, if I tell anyone to read blogs I always direct them to you and Sean.

    You Rock Lady.

    Sheilagh

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  8. Lovely Laura! It is nice to know you. Enjoy your anniversary. You deserve it!

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  9. Sooo proud of you girl. Thank you so much for sharing with all of us.

    It is so exciting to hear how you feel your life is changing/has changed. Wow. And it truly is amazing how of course your appearance has changed, but also your outlook on life/stuff, and also even your countenance. Yer grinnin' from ear to ear, and we, your readers are grinning right along with you!

    Wishing you continued success, sweets. You are doing this!! Waa hoo! Love, Chrissy

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  10. Hi Laura!

    Beautiful name for a beautiful person.

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  11. You are doing an amazing job!! I love the name Laura!

    Happy Anniversary to a wonderful woman.

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  12. Wishing you a very happy blog anniversary Laura...I think it's fantastic that your husband is taking you out to celebrate!! :)

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  13. Hi Zaa, Don't know if you remember me from Sparkpeople, but I've been checking in on your blog here from time to time. Finally posting a comment to say "congrats!" on your progress! You look great and you sound so happy! I'm very happy for you!
    -DMPRIDER

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  14. I feel like I know you well enough to know that you're doing fine...it's just been a while, out here looking for my ZaaBaby fix. ;)

    Happy living!

    My best always Laura,
    Sean

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  15. Missing you Zaa. Where are you?

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  16. HI!! Found your blog on someone's blogroll and I"ve enjoyed reading some of what you've posted. I just wanted to say "hi" and I hope all is well with you. I"m just starting this journey to be, I don't know, sane. reading about your journey so far, the ups and the downs has REALLY encouraged me.

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