Thursday, December 17, 2009

Day 224--Short and Sweet

I got a new coat last night, size 22/24. No, it's not blue but it's brown with a pink lining and I am hugging myself with joy. I got it for $7 at Walmart!!! I seriously thought I would be doomed to wearing layered jackets this winter. So I'm doing a happy dance. I still can't believe I fit in that size.
I remember so vividly how horrible it was to try on the largest size Walmart had, 26/28, and it was too small. Oh I hated myself then, and hated everything and everybody! Much happiness right now!
I also went to a worship team (don't know what else to call it) practice for the church I've been going to. And heading up to the stage are stairs. Yes. Stairs with no handrail. Stairs right in front where everyone can see. There was a time when I would have been so scared to go up and down them, and would have contrived all kinds of reasons NOT to go up there: it's my first practice, I am more comfortable down here, I don't want to play because I haven't practiced. Instead, I tripped up the stairs, sat on the stool in front of the keyboards and played and had a blast, and when it was over, I walked down the stairs, just like a normal person. I wasn't scared I would fall flat on my face because it was nothing to go down those steep carpeted stairs. I LOVE MY LIFE!
Really pushing the 'just say no' stuff with myself right now. I like to show that I have control over food by flat out not eating anything between meals. No gummy worms, no peanut blossom cookies, no 15 g of dark chocolate chips. It helps to remind myself that I CAN say no to food and it's perfectly alright, the world does not end. This life that I have chosen for myself is never to be about deprivation, agony, and failure. Just because I desire something doesn't mean I have to have it. Hopefully I have a long life ahead of me, and I want to spend it eating normally, healthily, enjoying the company of people around me, or the scenery.
Tonight is the elementary program at the school, tomorrow high school. Then my son comes home from the Air Force on Saturday!!!!! Yippy!!!!!!
Later all. Make wise choices!!!!!!!!! And try saying no to something. It's quite addicting.


  1. I am so glad that you found a coat that fits you in a smaller size!!! And what a great price. I love good deals.

  2. Sometimes all it takes is a new coat to show the progress you've made. Isn't it amazing how little things like that can just make your day!
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  3. You know something. Everytime I want to be lifted up---all I have to do is read your blog. I love your attitude, your enthusiasm, your strength. Yours is one of the best. I know how you felt fitting into that jacket, I know that feeling. Isn't it amazing? You are spot on everytime. It's a pleasure to read your writings. Thank you for always sharing.

    My best always