Friday, November 13, 2009

Day 190--Weigh Day and things I am forgetting. Yes, it's a list.

After I got the kids to school I went on my walk, then headed to the clinic to weigh. I am seriously considering getting my own scale now that I weigh below 300 pounds. So anyways, I lost 3 more pounds, for a total of 67 lost, I weigh 289!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I felt that deserved a bit of emphasis. Below 290! Everyday, Every Single Day I am astounded and amazed that what I am doing still works. It's just incredible. I eat cookie dough, I went to Sonic and had chicken strips and fries, and still. I still lost weight. I'm always having to brainwash myself away from the old 'bad foods good foods' mentality that I am preaching against. Habits of a lifetime are hard to break.
My six month anniversary for losing weight is next week. Half a year WOW that is a long time for me to be doing this! And after losing 67 pounds my life is so different than it used to be. I am forgetting how I lived.
  • I am forgetting how hard it used to be to get up off of the couch, or the toilet, or any chair period. I had to lean HARD on something for support and then give a good heave ho. Now I just get up.
  • I am forgetting how hard it used to be to walk up the stairs. It used to be so physically difficult to pick my legs up to each stair, they were so heavy. Now I just go. And everytime I marvel at how easy it is. I even run up the stairs.
  • Any kind of physical activity such as housework or shopping left me red faced and panting. Now I do all kinds of things around my house every day and that never happens. And after I'm done at WalMart I just get in my car and leave, I don't have to sit there for a few minutes to wheeze and pant and drink my water and eat my donuts/candybar/junk.
  • I'm forgetting how hot I used to be all the time. I revel in the fact that I am cold.
  • I used to be so reclusive, and was getting more and more as time went by. Now I am not ashamed of how I look, I'm kind of proud actually, and I enjoy going everywhere. My daughter is in choir and band and for the first time EVER I went with her to conference stuff. And I rode the bus. And it was super fun.
I'm glad my life is not the same as it was, and I'm glad I'm forgetting how awful it was. Joy stains backwards you know, floods your whole life with itself, and the past doesn't seem as bad. I am filled with joy, even though things are tough around me. I am coming alive.
I want the next half of my life to be different from the first half. I will be George and do the opposite.

Have a great day folks.


  1. great job on the loss, and if I were you..i would totally get my own scale. You earned it. I loved that line "joy stains backwards'...very pretty and joyous. Keep on going.

  2. Congrats on your milestone -- that's fantastic!

  3. Love, love, love this post, the whole thing! "Joy stains backwards" gives me hope that somehow I can get over the regrets of the past.

  4. I haven't checked in with your blog in so long. I'm sorry. So sorry to hear about your recent losses (MIL and grandbaby), but I am so proud of how well you are doing in spite of it. You are amazing! Keep going Zaa!!!

  5. Wow, there's no stopping you now!!