DAY 50 Unbelievable!

Here I am, day 50 is over and I'm still doing this. I'm still doing this! It's incredible! My heart is filled with joy because what I am doing is working. I am starting to like myself, and like what I see in the mirror. My smile looks different because my face is thinner. Just one more affirmation that yes, eating less and exercising more causes me to lose weight.
What I am looking forward to the most:
Going to World's of Fun and not worrying about if I will fit in the rides
Wearing a pair of jeans with a tshirt TUCKED IN and I look fine
Being able to run
Being able to run up the stairs
crossing my legs
having a cat fall asleep in my lap. not on my chest, my lap.
all new clothes, of course. I wonder what my style is. It's been so long since I've bought something I liked. I get whatever fits. Doesn't matter what it looks like.
owning and wearing pretty silky pajamas and robe
having an actual coat instead of a thick sweater in the winter time--I've always wanted a deep blue one.
And the best thing, watching people's reactions to my svelte self.
I am so excited to see all the tiny changes in my body.
I weigh on Friday.
Now that I'm taking vitamins and wellbutrin, I bought 2 pill boxes, one for AM and one for PM. Just like an old lady! The pink one is morning and the purple one is night. I filled them and weirdly it was fun.
I feel good. Yes, I am actually feeling good. You don't realize how bad you feel until you feel better. I'm taking an interest in my home, cleaning and organizing. Shock! Still not getting very much sleep. I can't wait til the night I sleep through and not wake up one time.
****We interrupt this blog for a moment of griping******
So my daughter has this friend. I think we all had one like her when we teenagers--very thin and cute and boys are drawn like a magnet. She was here yesterday and mentioned that she sees me walking everyday. I told her what I was doing and that I had lost 15 pounds.
Stickfiguregirl: I lost 15 pounds too!
Marshmallow: ...you did? (from where?! Your left earlobe?!)
Stickfiguregirl: Oh, I am always in a hurry to get to work (as a lifeguard, of course) in the morning so no breakfast and I forget to bring my lunch so I just don't eat all day.
Marshmallow: (trying not to show a grimace of irritation and dismay) well that's nice. (Nice! Mmmhmmm, riiiiiight. It's not nice. I am having to count my calories and walk 2.5 miles a day to lose weight and here she shrugs her shoulders and loses weight!) I'm happy for you. (Not really.)
Stickfiguregirl: I still have a ways to go.
Marshmallow: (I grab a pair of socks off the arm of the couch and stuff them in her mouth, effectively stopping the flow of words from her mouth. No, not really. I just left the room but I thought this needed a bit of drama.)
************my itty bitty pity party is done**********
I'm saying no to so many things! Like:
candy bars
pop
pink lemonade
potato chips and fritos
Sour cream onion dip
pop tarts
fast food of any shape and size
baking (I am very good at making desserts, trust me. Brownies, cakes, cookies, breads, ice cream desserts--they're yum but I am so not having it in the house.)
chocolate milk
now see, I COULD eat those if I wanted to. I do have 1500 calories each and everyday. I'm just not willing to blow my calories on stuff like that. I only get a small bit for a huge cost. I like to get more bang for my buck. I can have 2 homemade tostadas for 300 calories or 3 cups of pink lemonade . I would be insane to pick the lemonade. Or bacon and eggs and orange juice for 270 calories or ONE POPTART. I have learned quickly that there are things out there that are just not worth it.
NOT WORTH IT:
poptarts
macaroni and cheese
potato chips with sour cream and onion dip
candy in any shape and form (except for dark chocolate. I love me some of that)
did you know they make honey buns that are 600 calories apiece? neither did I
100 calorie snack packs--they are incredibly stupid--I can have 14 regular size pretzels for 110 calories.
cereal--I have discovered that milk and I do not like each other anymore which saddens my heart but oh well.
Right now in my house: 6 of my children; my 2 nephews; 3 friends of my 16 year old daughter here for a belated birthday sleepover. Three of my kids are asleep, the rest are all awake and playing a game called Mafia. As long as its not truth or dare or spin the bottle I'm fine. Aaaand I forgot my son asked me to wash his work clothes so I'll be up for a bit longer.
Make wise choices!